The world is so different without alcohol eyeglasses. My entire life is really starting to make sense and I'm learning how to gauge things that are going on in my life. I am starting to learn what really matters and what I would actually like to do with my life. I think starting this summer I'm going to be going back to school for Psychology. I'd like to be able to help other people the way that my therapist has helped me in so many ways. I think I finally figured out what my purpose in life is, and it is to help people. I think helping people and showing them love is the only thing in my life that is going to leave me feeling fulfilled. And, luckily the world needs a lot of love, so maybe it isn't such a bad thing. This is of course, just an idea, but something I feel pretty good about. I also, don't want to be 40, 35, or even 30 and bar tending. I want more then that for myself.
This entire 7 weeks has been crazy to me, I don't even know how I've gotten to where I am. It's been pretty emotionally up and down, but all good. Every emotion is good, at least as far as I can tell. In the book I'm reading, "The Rhythm of Life," it talks about how everything that everyone does is out of love. Everything that everyone does sincerely thinks that the actions they are doing is going to make them happy. And, I believe it. I know everything I do always has me thinking it's the right choice. If I step back and look at the larger picture though and what I actually want from life, I realize it isn't necessarily true and the choice I want to make changes right in front of me.
Off to my on-camera class!
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