Discovering a Sense of Discernment
Tired. I am tired.
Tonight I went to a bar with friends for the first time, besides to work, since I've started this program. It's interesting to be in an establishment where you've been totally wasted and then be there sober. Working in bars, this happens all the time, but to be in a place you don't work, IDK, it struck me as odd for some reason tonight. I didn't feel the need to drink, I was fine with my bottled water, but I also just didn't have the fun that I usually do. Granted, every night I go out isn't always the best time in the World, alcohol or no alcohol. My energy wasn't very high tonight, so that most likely has more to do with it then anything else. I don't want to be "sober" forever, I miss red wine. I miss red wine at dinner a lot. I think that what I really need to find is a life of moderation. Perhaps in the beginning it is a good idea to completely cut things out, and then you can slowly add them back in later.
Truly, there are no right answers, just trial and error.
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