Week 1, Day 5

Morning Pages

This morning I woke up in a great mood and ready to really dive in and start the day. That quickly faded when I started doing my morning pages. For whatever reason I started to rant, then started to talk about a horrible dream I had last night. Before I knew it, I was ripping myself apart. In the book, Julia explains that this happens a lot, and to just continue working. She says that usually the morning pages in the beginning consist of a lot of complaining and worrying. I guess that's exactly what happened. I feel better having gotten the dream out of my head and onto paper but the residing emotion still sits there.

Walking

Yesterday, I did my first planned walking. The "task" says that you should plan to walk at least 20 minutes and until your mind starts to unwind. I ended up walking for closer to an hour and really tried to work a couple issues out in my head. I don't know if it worked as well as I had hoped. But, like I've said before, walking and thinking isn't something new to me because I live in NYC. I probably walk everyday for an hour without even trying. I already spend a lot of time thinking, just now without music. Something that might work better for me is to every week pick a part of the city that I haven't been to in a while and walk there. That way I'd be opening up myself more to new ideas and imagination. I hardly ever go over to the East side, so maybe that's a good place to start?

Artists Date

I haven't "officially" done my artists date, but yesterday I spent 3 hours painting my new bedroom. That is artistic, but messy, and I don't love it. I've been so busy all week, but what I'd really like to do is go to a movie. I haven't been to the movies in a few weeks and it is killing me. I love going to the movies. So, I think either late tonight or tomorrow afternoon I'm going to take myself to the movies. Little Fockers looks great, and I'd love to just sit and laugh for a while. I need to unwind.