Week 2 is all about personal proportion. The idea behind this week is to break down the walls that you've placed around yourself that keeps you blocked from achieving the goals you have. The chapter explains that most of these walls are actually created by other people, but we still keep them firmly planted. It uses the examples of people saying things to you as a child like, "you're getting to big for your britches" and "just who do you think you are?" Both of these are in turn, telling you that you're only allowed to be one size and you have to fit into the box that the person is telling you to. It isn't an uncommon response to think, "I don't know who I am." But, what's also going on is you're saying, if you say I am this size, or I am this one thing, then I must be. In the chapter it also goes into detail about the responses that people usually receive when someone asks them what they do and their response is, "I am an artists." Substitute "artist" for actor, writer, painting, dancer, etc. The usual response is not one of confidence telling you that is great. As someone that is working towards a career in the arts, it is always discouraging to have someone not believe in you.
This week begs the questions of, "who believes in me that is around me", "how big do I see myself", and "who do I allow to keep me in a bubble?" This week is about breaking down the walls and allowing yourself to be whatever size you want to be and really try to find spaces of yourself that you aren't familiar with.
Time to work.
Morning Pages
Very hard this morning. It is Sunday morning and I just worked the last two night. I am exhausted and I really want to get to the gym. But, I made a commitment and I am sticking to it. Why I decided that the perfect first day to begin a new week every week is a Sunday is far beyond me. Sunday mornings are my laziest of all. I almost fell asleep writing my morning pages.
Army of one Thomas, you are an army or one. For now.
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