Week 3, Day 6

TASK: Make Something of It.

I finally got to my final task of the week, aside from my Artist's Date. This task asks you to pick a subject that may have been resting on your mind for a while and you can't see to find closure to it. I choose a personal relationship that I've had issues with shutting the door on. The instructions then tell you to pick up a pile of magazines and spend 20 minutes ripping out images that remind you of the person, subject, scenario, or whatever you had decided on. I went through 4 magazines and tore everything I saw that peaked my interest, no matter how relevant I thought it might be. Then, you are to spend 20 minutes places the images in order on a poster board, in the order that seems to make the most sense to you. After that, spend 20 minutes writing about what you discovered. I actually very surprised to see the final product. It wasn't something I had expected. I came to the realization that 80 percent of the board was given to the "other person" and a small corner to myself. I found that everything I had seen in this other person were only my own dreams, wishes, and ideas, but NOTHING that person actually brought to the table. I was shocked to see how little I actually saw myself in the situation, everything was about them.

Morning Pages:

CHECK: I started out with a thank you letter and forget what I ended with. I do enjoy writing thank you's though, even if a lot of the time they aren't going to actually be sent out.

Tomorrow will wrap up week 3 and I have my Artist's Date. I have no idea what I'm going to do for it yet.

I've noticed, this week I've felt better then ever. It's been almost exactly 3 weeks full without drinking, smoking and sex. My head just feels so much more focused and clear. I had a few friends over for dinner this week and it was very difficult to not grab a glass of wine and join in. But, I didn't. I do miss red wine though, a lot.