Week 5, Day 1

DISCOVERING a SENSE of PERSONAL TERRITORY!!

FIRST THINGS FIRST

Yesterday, before work I wrote all about wanting to dance; how much I miss it. Last night, I danced. I was working with my buddy behind the bar and we danced back and froth for hours. We were just having fun and being ridiculous. I could feel the heart energy radiating off me, I LOVED IT. We were crazy busy, but that didn't stop us from enjoying the moments. One of our favorite past times while working is to mimic what the go-go boys do on the boxes. Before I knew it, I was juggling grape fruit juice cans and eventually limes. :-) I learned how to juggle for a play my freshman year in High School. You'd be surprised the amount of times I do it just to be silly. I should learn a few tricks, it could actually come in pretty handy at some point. I'm not sure exactly when, but hey, ya never know. The point of all this, we danced. I danced and no one died. Who knew?

The title for chapter 1 of Week 5 is, "SEXUALITY VS. CARE-TAKING"

I MEAN, REALLY? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? The whole chapter is about how when you start to go into a relationship or involved in one, that as an artist you have to make sure that you both are taking care of each other and that you one of you is not spending creative energy on simply taking care of the other person. This pertains to my life in a completely unbelievable way. I can't count the amount of times that I have wasted my own personal energy on someone that was undeserving of it, or simply wanted to suck the energy from me. I can't count the amount of times that I've abandoned myself for the care of someone else. The chapter goes on to talk about the connection between sexuality and creativity. It explains how much having love in your life beings light and creativity to you when it is equal. I've never dated an "artist" of any sort. But, I think I should, maybe we would understand each other better? I have friends that are artists and friends that aren't creative at all and don't understand it. You can probably guess which of these groups I talk to about my thoughts, dreams, and goals.

I'm really excited to see where this chapter is going to come and play into my life.

The next chapter is "Stop Being "Nice," and Be Honest." :-)